So may be I want to spend the rest of my life with you

That is the happily ever after kind of fairy tale that we have been told ever since snow white got that kiss from the beast, or after Ariel lost her glass slippers, or after Miley’s You Belong with Me.

I sat alone in living room, biting my apple, cogitating on the possibility of happily ever after of a single man after reading the engagement news of my ex-classmates on FB. Does love have to be filled be ripples of storm and tsunami and then THAT one kiss after breaking through all the obstacle and mean stepmother? Can it just be, a simple love? Perhaps the question mark is, do people still want a simple love? NO, don’t answer first. Hold your breath.

This morning I borrowed the beauty of sunshine and put it on my face. I found my spot in PizzaHut, planning to spend half of my day there with music and book, and more food.
All by myself. Is this love simple enough?

OR, last night I put on my swimming trunk and went for a dip. The sapphire blue water made my skin glow like an elf. I danced like a merman under the moonlight.
Do I want more?

Feeling the other lips on mine, sharing the luxurious warmth under my old comforter, singing with another person in an old car, or kissing under water in swimming pool.. Do I want more?

Eventually. Perhaps one fine day.
But what if nobody loves me?
What if the love goes sailing smooth, and we don’t want to believe its actual love?


Afraid of the next Goodbye

Because I don’t want to embark on something new all over again.
(One thing I love about blogging is I can start my sentence with ‘because’ although I’ve been taught not to do that)

Most of the time we get too compatible with all the familiar surrounding, we probably need two brains to calculate a small new step, because everyone knows how their bedsheets smell like, or the exact amount of turns and steps to reach their bathroom to pee at night.
In the middle of saying Hello to a new object/situation, we find the quickest way to settle down and refuse to make a change, no discussion needed. NO!

Everything changes everyday, the carbon dioxide level, Lady Gaga’s hair, British royalty hats, etc. Funny thing is we human who make all the newspaper-reportable changes, never progress. With all the greatest inventions surrounding us, everything has become so instant, literally.
– With a click, you’re friend with someone on FB whom you’ve just met 3.6207563 minutes ago
– With a “Ding”, your instant food is ready and you can get back to your war immediately
– With a blink, next thing you know, everyone is holding Iphone 8.

Things that could be very valuable has become less meaningful because it’s too easy to get, you can grab a fistful of anything anytime.
We don’t know how to appreciate friends anymore, because instead of writing them letters to find how how their handwriting look like or do we like the same books, we can look through the transformation of their whole life by just clicking the info part on FB. That’s it, you know almost everything about your new friend and what are you going to talk about the second time you meet each other? Inner turmoil? Family conflict?

complicated lifeWe make our world so damn complicated you can’t be just an accountant anymore, people will be expecting a Superman uniform underneath your suit. Not only that, you’ll need to have the perfectly abs-bulous physique to make the red underwear shine. Sigh.

C’est la vie.